Dear Diary …. by Kellianne Sweeney

Dear Diary,

I have been gone. I have been constrained within the borders of reality. I have been abruptly locked out of my Creative Writing Fantasy World by issues in my real life. I have been struggling with sadness that was threatening to spiral into depression. I consider myself a positive and optimistic person who is always on the look-out to find and share the proverbial silver lining. But even I get knocked flat sometimes without any apparent handholds to pull myself back up.

While attempting to deal with my challenges, I decided to try to work through and express the feelings by writing darker pieces. This did not work for me. I know it works for some writers, but for me its’ effect was to pull me further down into despair. So I had to stop writing altogether. To stop writing made me feel like I lost my best friend when I needed them the most. The desire to escape into my writing fantasy world was great, but I could not enter. I was completely creatively stopped up.

I am relieved to say that I am now opening the door and stepping back inside. I feel my creativity beginning to trickle again and hopefully, it will soon be a full stream. I have missed you and my Writing World. A twitter friend put it well when she said “I hate when reality gets in the way of my writing.”  I totally agree, but it is also important to remember that within our reality our highest joys and our most crashing lows give us the best fodder for the most meaningful and heart touching stories to pen. We write because we love it and because we have to.